On May 18th, Hubby and I went in to the doctor for our routine ultrasound. The only difference between this one and the one with our daughter was that I am now of "advanced maternal age" at the ripe age of 35. Due to that fact, I had to go to a maternal specialist. No big deal, just get to see more of the baby since it is more indepth. Well, it turned out to be not as routine as expected. After about 30 minutes of looking, the doctor began to be a little concerned. He showed us that there was fluid next to the left lung and a "spot" on the lung. Since the baby kept flipping around he couldn't get a good look at the heart so he wasn't sure what he was looking at. The heart was positioned where it was supposed to be, which was good because if there was any extra cells on the lung it would push the heart to the center of the chest or to the right.
Well, needless to say, he was unable to give us a true diagnosis but said that he would be sending us for a fetal echocardiagram to get a good look at the heart and then he wanted us back for a follow-up in four weeks. He also suggested that we change hospitals for the birth incase there would be complications with breathing.
Deep in my heart, I knew that God would not give us the son that we desired only to have complications. Therefore, I was totally and completely at peace. No fear welled up inside me, just God given peace.
A week later, we went to have the echocardiagram. After reviewing the ultrasound, the doctor consulted with us. She said that the heart was exactly as it should be for a 22-week baby and did NOT see any fluid in the chest cavity NOR could she see any spot on the lung. She did preface that she was not looking at the lung but the heart because that is what she focuses on. This was a wonderful confirmation for us only a week after the initial ultrasound. However, we still had three weeks before the follow-up ultrasound.
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Well, that ultrasound follow-up was last Wednesday. It only took thirty minutes total but it only took about five minutes for the doctor to be amazed that whatever he saw the first time was NO LONGER THERE!!!! Thank you, God!!! We know that there was something there because hubby and I could see what the doctor was seeing yet we knew that our God is much bigger than a doctor's diagnosis. Our baby will arrive in the world in less than 15 weeks and he will be whole, well, complete and I will have the birth/delivery that I want, at the hospital I want and with the doula I want.
Praise Jesus!
Posted by: Dana | June 20, 2005 at 05:20 PM